Where Am I Going?

Loving me takes time. I have been so concerned about what others want and think of me, that I forgot what I want. I used to take care of myself everyday, but since college I have not. I have been stressed with family problems, love life, career aspirations, and my spirit. I love to write, but I'm not sure what to write about. So I'm writing about everything that is important to me. I have been trying to find a job in journalism but it's taking longer than expected. I have started with other avenues to make a living, but I still want to write for a magazine or newspaper. I love giving my opinions and advice and learning about others. I also tend to focus on love of others than love of myself. I think I have because some part of me thinks that it's selfish to pay attention to myself. As I study Christianity and Islam, I realize that if you are trying to be a Muslim or Christian you must pay attention to yourself and love yourself because Allah (God) loves you no matter what. "He" sees all and believes in everyone, and therefore we must believe in ourselves if we believe in him. Now that I know and believe this my family life has gotten better. I no longer see certain people as the enemy, they just don't know any better. It is my job to be a leader and show them how it is done. Crying and being angry doesn't help the situation, but doing something about it does. I am growing up, and although I'm still not sure where I will end up in this life, I know that Allah (God) has my back no matter what. From here on out I will take care of myself.